Am Postive, I am Going to Fail!

So far my life is best summatized by 2020.

It's been unpredictable with highlights of the anticipated next. 

 I have had a fair share of completed deliverables eg completed university, tried business, learned to code, got a job, saved some cash, even bought myself a suit not to forget asking some beautys out for lunch. 

The agony lies in the abstract objectives that have not been realized. The after life promised after fixing a deliverable is not always linearly traced. 

What is expected after you complete college? (no internships) 

What next after an internship?(flop the interview) 

What next after a job? (underemployed) 

What next after writing a book?(the world ain't interested) 

What next after a date? (the ex is better) 

What next after a presentation before thousands? (no sale) 

What next after your first million?(inflation hits) 

The results have always been surprising. Unexpected! 

When I have put my ego on the line, I have felt like an utter failure. Yet in the long run, the big picture curated carefully manifests a huge success.

Perhaps, My slice of eternity ain't any different from Jeff bezo's.  We all don't really know what's next! Do we?

Am Postive, I am Going to Fail! And that's not the point. 


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